day 10, the secrets we keep

secret lovers
untold love
unattainable dreams

unsung triumph
battles fought
the strength we have inside

the things we have lost
the bruises we hide
the scars that no one can see

truths
lies
lows
highs
the silence we never can't keep

days 8 and 9, rewrites and random songs

the path ahead was always clear
and sure I had always been
and yet as the bend in the road grew near
a feeling arose, that to me was queer
a louder voice that rose above the din

I took the turn with no regret
no one could change my mind
they discouraged and yet
every challenge I met
a better dream to find

how hard I tried
times could be rough
sometimes I lied
about how often I cried
fearing it'd never be enough

the path ahead was always clear
but never had I been so wrong
the person now is ever more dear
independent and strong and free of fear
a heart with a happier song

                                                                                              

when I wanted you more
I was head over feet
I forgave you always
just one more time
when I walked away
the last time
I don't think I truly believed
that I was ever
gonna get over you
but one day you awake
and everything is gone
with a misty vagueness
of glitter in the air

days 5, 6, and 7

my Jamesian "golden shovel"

the word never uttered "their"
no word for the state of relationship
unsure of what their feelings consisted

always searching for the right way in
avoiding the possibility of discussing
the ever hang if
no interest in defining it
grateful that it existed


                                                                                   

clear blue sky
cool spring breeze
possibility shining forth
the monster stirs
from underground
a new face born
from a new hope
found

                                                                                    

pages that smell of dust
dog eared and torn
covers hang loose
a poor man's trash
that leads me to worlds
beyond my own
and teaches lessons
that life alone
cannot

day 4, trying out lunes

silent darkness waits
cold wind whipping through trees
everyone still asleep

hoping for endurance
heart pounding in your ears
breaths come sharp

feet pound pavement
aching joints hide deeper pains
the body throbs

a painful past
replaced by a gained strength
running from sighs

born from sweat
the tears of those lost
bring new life

NaPoWriMo, third day's a charm

never leave the comfort of your own bed
when making decisions, use your head
speak only when spoken to
behave the way you're told to do
don't take risks, stay at home
obey the rules, never roam
never give but always take
and then your heart can never break

NaPoWriMo Day 2, rooted in myth

the true origin of original sin
lurking in shadows
preying upon men
her submission they required
but darkness she chose
the taste of blood
hangs upon her breath
when wrapped in her cold embrace
her kisses bring
death

NaPoWriMo, New Year, New Beginnings

an invisible girl
who you saw
a silent voice
that you heard
an inner strength
that you rebuilt
a deeper love
that you nurtured
and let go
so I could be seen
and heard
so I could free myself
from fear
so I could find a deeper love 
for me